These first two pictures are actually from last fall semester, in Digital Imaging 1. We, uh, learned Photoshop. It may be somewhat obvious from these pictures.
For these projects I focused on my mental illnesses. The first is depression–the friction between my performance identity (or maybe the person I consider to be my “true self?”) and the pain, loneliness, and despair I am sometimes infected with. Since a life-changing and traumatic event in 2010 I have been dealing with these feelings at varying levels of intensity. I’ve worked very hard and coupled with medication, therapy, and the support of my loved ones, I’ve made considerable progress. Butterflies symbolize metamorphosis, personal growth, and hope. Blue is the color of healing as well as melancholy. Origami is something I use as an active meditation, and has helped calm my nerves in the past.
That was a nice haircut, non?
I’ve always had trouble sleeping, even when I was naught but a wee lass. By high school I was a chronic insomniac. It wasn’t until last winter that I found out I have sleep apnea. I might’ve had it all along! I won’t go into the boring details, but the basic problem is that I don’t usually complete a cycle of REM sleep. This is a bad thing. Now I use a super sexy CPAP machine and things have improved. Of course, my anxieties also keep me awake, so my problems haven’t been completely alleviated. It’s a work in progress.
The image is a composite of around 25 photographs. I hoped to capture the restlessness that I, and others with anxiety and sleep disorders, struggle with. The background may look odd on screen–it is printed with a transparent background, so you only see the paper. Looks more…ethereal, I guess? Anyway.
Both are printed on 13 x 19 in. matte paper.
Next post, Digital Imaging 2.
Thanks for reading. Hope I wasn’t too much of a downer. <3